On the precipice of my 30s and am still a virgin. Don't really ever expect to be abel to have a proper long term relationship as i have seemingly nothing to offer a prospective partner. I need to get this first fuck mental block out of the way. As most women my age will be comparatively more experienced sexually i generally sabotage any chance i have of getting some. I am petrified that the hole experience will be perfunctory and embarrassing for me and borderline repugnant for the girl. Any woman that likes me enough to actually want to have sex with me does not deserve the humiliating ordeal that this would entail.