First time learning
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張貼於:2021年 9月 23日 5:17 am
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Years ago i answered a post off of Craigslist from a young lady. It was a bit vague, but i took it as an offer for a hookup. After a couple of exchanged emails and phone chats she gave her address and i went visit her.
It happened rather quickly that i was standing in front of her as she sat on the couch asking kinds of personal questions of my past females encounters. Did i mention that she was young enough be my daughter? It was a bit humiliating but i endured because i thought there was a promise of sex.
She told strip for her she sat there watching. i did of course. i was too far into it now thinking that sex with someone 25 years younger was about to happen even if it was starting in a way that i had never experienced before now. She was imprinting in me a whole new way to enjoy the company of another women.
She got , still dressed, and proceeded inspect my body. i have admit that i was wet and horny, but somehow knew that i had let her without changing her interest. She made some many comments my body her fingers explored . my internal thoughts were why was i letting her do this .
The next step was that she told kneel down in front of her. Yes i did and i was feeling humiliated that she had this sudden power over . Still i couldn't[t not follow her instructions. Her words touched my soul or something. She told me that she was in charge of everything that was going to happen and i was not to question it but to just do it. Humbly and embarrassed i told her that i agreed to conditions.
Follow me she said, and i started to get , no she said crawl after she turned and walked down the hall. It lead her bedroom. Undress she said but don't even dare touch my body. This was something new and a bit difficult but i managed it. i was feeling humiliated and turned both at the time with i can only describe this little girl was ordering do things and i was liking it at the time.
She laid there the bed naked and instructed lick every inch of her body without touching the good parts. It took some time, but at this point i would have done anything she asked but it wasn't until years later that i understood why i was enjoying servicing her the way she wanted.
As the day continued i did get to her pussy and ass. Something i was quite used doing for the past women in my life. When she was at her point of completion she abruptly told me to get up and go get dressed. What i thought, nothing for me. i didn't say that to her of course but turned out to the living room to get my cloths and get dressed. She appeared dressed at that point and told me to go home.
Over the next months every 1-2 weeks she would call when come over her place. It was always about her needs and wants. i have admit that never in our times together did she ever return and of the favors to me. i came to enjoy over time and became excited to receive her call to come to her. Slight variations of how to please her, but it ended with me going home to masturbate alone.
This women trained me to love being used through humiliation as she, over time, became more vocal in telling me how much of a slut i was obeying her and getting a good laugh at my willingness to serve and obey her. i admit that i loved being treated in this way; it felt natural to be controlled by another.
In conclusion she taught me to love my station in life as the submissive one. She was also the first to teach me my love for foot worship. She also taught me that humiliation equals love. She also taught me that as a submissive i had to accept being shared. On two occasions she had her gf at her house when i arrived. i was told to her without even knowing her or any commination. After which i had stand nose in the corner listening their love making while they ignored . i loved her but never believed she loved . Instead she taught the attitude of "i hope you like , but you don't have respect ".
Life is strange in how one person and their way of life can change forever ones outlook on life. Today i cannot live in a relationship an equal another. i am drawn dominant women and that makes my life compete. Time and time again over the past two decades i have been searching recreate that feeling of being allowed serve.
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