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I'm a disaster with dating and relationships
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I'm a disaster with dating and relationships I came across an article online that said that the sunday after new years day was the busiest time of year for people trying to find love. It's also a peak period between new year and valentine's day. Why is this so? is it the pressure to start the new year in a happy and successful relationship or the desire to have someone for valentine's day. Why are we so scared to be alone ? is it not better to be alone than stuck in a relationship with a douche? Ok, so yep, I have had my share of crap relationships and I've done more than my share of whining about being single. But when I compare it to the experience of actually going on a first date, I think I prefer being single. I detest first dates, in fact I don't enjoy the first few. I feel pressured to live up to other peoples expectations. Hence why I rarely commit to a date. My first meeting with my current bf? he just jumped in the car and drove out to me. He ignored all my excuses and pushed away all the bullshit. And it worked out (for now anyway, we'll see how it pans out). I've met my last few bf's through online dating. I've had a profile here for many many years, but I've rarely met anyone in person. I had a casual affair with one over a couple of years and I had a very complicated 3 year relationship resulting in a small with another. Even if it's just a sexual relationship, I find it difficult to commit to meeting. I don't know if I expect too much or if it's because of my fear of rejection or both. I'm scared of commitment as well. In general, I just don't know what I want. I want to sleep alone, but I want someone in my bed. I want my own space, but I want someone to hang out with. It's confusing enough for me, imagine dragging someone else into the mix lol. Is it just me? I'm in my early 30's I should have my shit together by now, I should be confident, I should be looking for a committed relationship. Isn't that what society tells us? I have to say though, I'm getting sick of all the younger men calling me a cougar, I'm not that bloody old. Does anyone understand my issues? or am I a freak ? |
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I understand your issues, obviously from the male side of it. I've come to accept the following as my mantra. "FUCK THAT SHIT", I'll be me and that is it, take it, leave it or whatever. I'm no longer losing sleep or worrying about any of it. Yeah it can be lonely, oh well. Good luck to you in your search for what makes you ultimately happy. Take care, have fun, be safe.
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hey how do I get more points on the website hahah
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