October 3 update: I've been tied up so long that I've lost contact with a lot of people. I've become so promiscuous with people I meet face to face that I can hardly believe I've not yet had sex with anyone I've met online. I should probably say that I've come 360 now, because I have some people who are helping me become a little more selective. So, my old "tasks" have changed to meeting with some of them. You may even have some fun with them along the way. April 29 update: I originally thought that my criteria for actually doing an in-person meeting was fairly trivial. But I realize now that I'm asking a lot. The tasks actually appear to be very difficult for most of you. But they are letting me get to know some of you quite well. I still have not had sex with anyone on this site, but I believe I will. In the meantime, the getting to know people part is important enough to me that I'm back. At least I'm glad I did not put myself through this online process, or I'd still be a virgin! :) Just so you understand me, I've gotten almost to the point of being "loose" in my life, but I've discovered that I have a real phobia of meeting people online, so I'm a quite a bit of work to get to know here. But, like I said, that's why I'm on this site at all anymore. march 28 update: I'm in the middle of an unbelievable business trip to the Bay Area, so I've finally had some time to respond to some of you. I admit that two weeks ago I was very naively desperate and terrified that I would not be able to find any to help me with my "problem". I was more than naive, I was an idiot. I've had so much male attention since my coming out that I'm now sure I will never lack for sex ever again. Still, I feel it is important to keep my orginal promise: I will do anything for anyone on this site who completes my little tasks. They were the tests I came up with to make sure I knew who I was dealing with. You may even find some of them fun and fulfilling by themselves. But no one so far has even asked about my criteria. I will do nothing to reveal my identity to anyone on this site until I feel comfortable with them, so no pictures, phone calls, chats, etc. If you need a hint of what I look like there is a web porn star that a few men have mentioned to me. They seem to think I compare very favorably to her. I guess I sort of see what they mean, but I don't have a nice big butt like her and my breasts don't hang down naturally like hers do even though they are real. They sort of poke straight out with no overlapping skin. I've always worn baggy blouses to give me a more well-proportioned look, but I've found that showing them off definitely gets me a lot more attention, so I guess they meet with a lot of guys' approval. Her name is Angel Dark (not Dark Angel) and a web image search with no safety filter on should get you to some of her pictures fairly quickly. Love, Kathy march 26 update: After an unexpected one week delay, I finally am no longer a virgin. The deflowering was extremely kinky and fulfilled all my fantasies except that no one took my behind. (So, I guess I'm still a virgin there!) march 19 update I had a very wild weekend, but I'm still a virgin. But I'm not an oral virgin anymore! Yes, it's true! My first blow job! I don't think I did it very well, but I sure liked it. By Friday afternoon, I was sure I would lose my virginity over the weekend, but some strange things happened that made me lose out. I've got so much going on already that I haven't even answered any email here yet. I will probably get back to some of you, but I'm not sure I'll be using this site after all. I guess I may have been a little too cryptic about one of my requirements in my original message, because no one mentioned it. original entry: Hi! I'm Kathy. Now, don't laugh, but I'm a virgin! What can I say? I was the perfect little Mormon girl. But not any longer. I waited for my missionary. He was my boyfriend since I was 14 and we were engaged just before he left. When he got back from his mission he informed me that he was going to marry my girlfriend. She was the one that introduced us. Now I find out that they were having sex since she was 11. She introduced us because he wanted to have sex with both of us at the same time. But I never budged and he just made me his public girlfriend while keeping his secret one. Secret only from me, because apparently everyone from our old high school seems to know this. I've heard that there isn't anything she won't do for him. A couple of my old friends now confide in me that they would have sex with her while he watched. I'm pretty sure they are still not telling me everything. All that time doing what I thought was the right thing to do was not easy for me. As far as I can tell, I'm much more sexual than most women. Even before I reached puberty I could no longer ride a bicycle because the feeling down there would drive me crazy. And guys seem to like me. They don't seem to mind at all that my breasts are too big for my skinny body and that I have no hips at all. By the time I was eleven I had to stop going to the swimming pool because the way the guys would look at my breasts would make me want to rip all my clothes off. Just brushing up against a boy or a man would make me feel like I had to pee. One time I walked in on my uncle in the bathroom. He was naked, but I could not take my eyes off his manhood. I just stood in the doorway, unable to move. He seemed to know that I could not resist him. He reached under my shirt, undid my bra and was just moving his hands to my breasts when my aunt got home. I know I would not have stopped him no matter what he did to me. I made sure to never be in the same house with him again. I went to a concert once and in the mosh pit someone started undoing my pants. I did not stop him. He started to put his hand in my panties when my pants fell down to my knees. My brother noticed this and pulled me away from him. I still don't know who he was. I never went to another concert again. And I think I've fantasized about getting ever since I was six years old when my mother made it clear to me that this was the only way I was going to have sex before I got married. And I always wanted to go to the doctor because it was the only time it was perfectly legal for a man to touch me when I was naked. There was one doctor in particular who made me feel so good I know he was taking advantage of me in ways I know now he was not supposed to. Back then I convinced myself he was just doing what a doctor is supposed to so I didn't have to make myself stop going to him. I always wished I had more time alone with him, but the nurses always interrupted. I guess now that they had a fair idea of what was going on behind closed doors. One time when I was 15 or so I had an appointment at the end of the day when the nurse on duty had an emergency. He had me take off my examination robe and bend over the examination table with my legs spread as wide as I could. He proceeded to give me a rectal exam with the thumb of his left hand for about an hour. Most of the time his right hand seemed to be busy elsewhere, but from time to time he would use it to examine my thighs, my breasts and between my legs. I'm sure I must have had several orgasms in that hour, but I had no idea what they were. It made it much harder to not touch myself down there after, I know that. And even though I've been very good about not doing that, I generally wake up about once a week having one. I didn't ever want him to stop, but around six my mom knocked on the door. He just told her he needed about 15 more minutes. He told me that he needed to check me for dizziness, so I should close me eyes, stand up and turn around slowly. He told me to arch my back, bend over, put my hands on top of my head, touch my toes, stick out my butt, stick out my chest and a bunch of other things. I didn't think too much about it until I peeked on one revolution and saw he had his manhood in his hand. I got so excited that I sort of peed all over myself. Just after that I heard him do up his pants. Then he said that I could open my eyes and get dressed. He just sat there and watched me. I took as long as I possibly could. When I was fully covered again, he told me to wait a few minutes before coming out. My mom told me on the way home that he had found some kind of intestinal blockage, prescribed some medicine for it and said that I had to come back once a week for a month. I couldn't wait. That Sunday, I made up some flimsy excuse of why I had to be examined immediately and walked five miles to his house only to be greeted by his wife who eyed me suspiciously and said he wasn't home. I never went back. And the nurses never left us alone again. So, I'm hoping someone out there does not mind my inexperience and is willing to teach me how to please men and women sexually. Even though I'm pretty naive about sex still, I believe I have a lot to offer. I'm a quick learner. And, of course, I've always been taught to do exactly what I'm told. I promise I will do whatever you ask me to do. I am pretty eager to get started with my new life, but I still want to pick the right man to lose my virginity to. I understand it can be painful and there could be a lot of bleeding. I don't have any criteria like looks or age or even gender, but I have thought of a few things I would like you to do for me before I agree to meet. And, if you don't like virgins, look me up again in a month or two! Love you already, Kathy

My Ideal Person October 3 update:
Now I'm just looking to finally overcome my fear of meeting people online. I've selected some people I know for you to meet to help me. Some of them know me and some of them may have sex with you. So, I'm looking for people willing to meet my people first.

April 29 update
Ok, I've changed a lot since I first wrote this! I'm very comfortable meeting guys now and I have more of my own identity around sex, but I do still like pleasing a lot. Since I'm now getting enough casual sex, I'm back on this site after a few weeks off because I'm actually better at getting to know people here because I'm so much less comfortable meeting people on line that I don't just jump in bed first. And my little tasks have been helping me with just that: getting to know people better before having sex with them.

Orgininal post
I don't really feel like I have a sexual identity yet, so I'm hoping to meet someone who's willing to tell me what to do. To teach me. I'm more than willing to do a one night stand, but it would also be nice to have someone to spend some time with me showing me the ropes and giving me a variety of experiences. I need to know a lot of really basic stuff, like how to let the guys at school know I want to have sex with them. I've spent my whole life trying to not give off any signals that it really does not come natural to me. I mean, I wouldn't even mind having someone take me shopping for some new clothes that give guys the right idea about me.

What location do you fantasize about for a sexual encounter?:
A bed, locker room/showers of the school football team

What types of sexual activities turn you on?:
Giving Oral Sex, I need to try them all

Have you ever had cybersex?:
Not yet, but I definitely want to try it.

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