sorry..
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Posted:Dec 12, 2011 11:59 am
Last Updated:Dec 17, 2011 6:43 am
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Sorry, I've never told you, all I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feelin' and knowing you, hear me
It keeps me alive, alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Eventually I'll see you in Heaven
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene from Heaven
Although, the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry, I never told you
All I wanted to say
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but I know....
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Posted:Dec 12, 2011 11:46 am
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2011 2:58 pm
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Somebody tell me why !!!!!
I still ask that somedays.
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you..
On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face.. till then you guys
this song is to My Mom my baby brother and my brother Dan.
I sure wish they were here, I need them today..
but I know..
sorry about all of this sad crap guys but I gotta try and get it all out of me.
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living a life of illusion
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Posted:Dec 12, 2011 11:30 am
Last Updated:Dec 14, 2011 8:13 am
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Sometimes I can't help the feeling that I'm
Living a life of illusion
And oh, why can't we let it be
And see through the hole in this wall of confusion
I just can't help the feeling I'm
Living a life of illusion
Pow! Right between the eyes
Oh, how nature loves her little surprises
Wow! It all seems so logical now
It's just one of her better disguises
And it comes with no warning
Nature loves her little surprises
Continual crisis
Hey, don't you know it's a waste of your day
Caught up in endless solutions
That have no meaning, just another hunch
Based upon jumping conclusions
Caught up in endless solutions
Backed up against a wall of confusion
Living a life of illusion
~ Joe Walsh
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Everthings topsy-turvy
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Posted:Dec 12, 2011 10:47 am
Last Updated:Dec 14, 2011 8:47 am
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I gathered most of us had a pretty hectic weekend considering how close the holidays are getting.
So I wanted to post that lovely pic, just sit and breath for a minute or two while you gaze at it..
May it give you a sense of relaxation and renewal like it did me.. though it only lasts a minute or two  .
My weekend was horrid ! more so emotionally than physically, though my back is killing me..
Some pretty heart wrenching events happened over the weekend.
I might blog about them later when I feel like I wont be drug back down by typing the crap out.
Because I've cried enough over the last couple of years to last a lifetime I think..
Let's just say I feel like such a fool..
Love works in miracles every day: such as weakening the strong, and stretching the weak;
making fools of the wise, and wise men of fools; favouring the passions, destroying reason,
and in a word, turning everything topsy-turvy.
~Marguerite De Valois
much love {=}
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the warm summer wind continued.. it's long BUT PLEASE READ !!
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Posted:Dec 9, 2011 11:23 am
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2011 1:49 pm
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I knew grief would have its way with me this holiday season.
When they pass during the holidays it truly does make it worse.
harder in away.
While everyone else is running around shopping planning parties going to parties, you are longing for loved ones that have passed on.
While I do not sit and whaller in my grief, I do give it it's respect and time, for if I don't it will come out in other ways.. Such as drinking or eating to much, snapping and stressing on the ones you live with. Or like when I was young, sleeping around way to much trying to heal my pain with all the wrong things..
I know this time of the year is hard on anyone who has lost someone they love.. and if it was during the holidays they passed well it's just alittle harder I believe..
When I was 19 we buried my Step dad, I hate calling him that , he raised me but not wanting to confuse people when I write about my father whom is still alive..
anyways When I was 19 we buried him on December 23rd.. and that is also they day we buried my baby brother..
For those who may not know my baby brother committed suicide in 2009. this is my original post about it Christmas Prayers.
I have taken it very hard, being the eldest woman at the time it happened and the fact my other brother and I raised him after my Dad's death because my Mom lost it after that has made it so..
In October of the same year my MOm passed away as well, this played a huge part in my baby brother's suicide I think..
then a few months later another brother of mine passed away, they didn't call it suicide but drugs were involved and in my heart I know it was..
What I want to talk about is the guilt that the remaining friends and family must carry after someone they love kills themselves..
You see for me everyday is a battle against the guilt I feel over both of my brothers suicides..
I know people will say it wasn't your fault so and so forth, but in all honesty I could of reached out more, hell I could of been around at least my baby brother more physically , maybe then I would of seen with my own two eyes how he was doing..
I did neither.
Now I did call my other brother whom live sin Florida, one time he sounded so messed up he could barely talk. I did call my Dad and told hm about it, but nothing ever came from it.. I should of kept calling till they took me seriously !!
Ya know, they say life goes on, it does, but it is never the same. I have changed and this guilt that I carry wins some days.. Like today..
The guilt changes you, weighs you down the grief and lose does as well. but people were right about that you learn how to carry thhe grief in away that doesn't weigh you so much as it did in the beginning..
Today I am grieving and the guilt is overwhelming me..
It keeps me up at night, it raises my sugar levels and my blood pressure, my grief, my guilty feelings is why I gained so much weight since they have been gone..
The one time I did get my brother in Florida to open up all he talked about was how it was his fault that our baby brother died, how he should of been there, you see I believe the guilt he carried lead him to his overdose..
Why am I bringing this sup you might be wondering well, it sure isn't for pity, longtime blog friends know that..
I bring it up to bring attention to the fact that during the holiday months suicide rates rise and I want anyone who has ever or is thinking of suicide to stop and think of the people who love you and what they have to deal with and carry for the rest of their lives !!!
Do me a favor will ya ??
If you know someone is depressed reach out to them, if you good enough friends keep reaching out to them, please !
If you see a stranger with that blank stare in their eyes, say hello,please !
Sometimes the smallest kind gesture can make a world difference..
much love {=}
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the warm summer wind
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Posted:Dec 9, 2011 10:01 am
Last Updated:Dec 31, 2011 1:50 pm
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I dreamed of the warm summer wind last night,
it felt so wonderful as it caressed my skin,
it played with my auburn hair till it was a complete mess.
I just stood there under the summer sun,
naked except for this cool white sheet,
which was being whipped around like a kite on a string..
I felt so at peace, so relaxed..
while the summer wind was renewing my soul..
It was a beautiful dream....
much love {=}
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TiTTy thursday... pics to vote on =D
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Posted:Dec 8, 2011 4:22 am
Last Updated:Dec 9, 2011 12:30 pm
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A couple of years ago I started titty tuesday to celebrate my birthday and my love of titties.
Though I am now calling it titty thursday it is still a celebration of titties.
Don't ya just Love them ?
Big titties, Little titties,
it makes no difference to me, I love them all.
If you want to join in the celebration all you do is include the number that is next to your favorite titty pics.
You can vote as many times as you would like.
These are images I searched for, none are member pics.
In 6 months I will do a best of the best post.
I hope you enjoy the ones I picked out for all of you.
Here's the first post of two posts of pics to choose from 
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It leads to kissing
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Posted:Dec 6, 2011 11:09 am
Last Updated:Dec 8, 2011 11:05 am
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Don’t have sex man. It leads to kissing and pretty soon you have to start talking to them.
~ Steve Martin
When I was younger this quote offended me, I only heard a guy saying it to other guys up in my head.
but These days it's still a man saying it but he's saying to both sexes
Isn't it funny how our perception of things can change so much as we get older ?
Do you have an example of how your perception of something like a song, a movie or even a quote has has change since you have gotten older ?
much love {=}
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just deal with it.
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Posted:Dec 5, 2011 10:46 am
Last Updated:Dec 7, 2011 10:35 am
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sighs.. it's Monday and it's a rough one.
I shouldn't even be sitting here blogging
oh well,
I gotta put on my big girl panties and just deal with it
how is your Monday going/go ?
much love {=}
thats bling guys
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Pound My Ass
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Posted:Dec 4, 2011 9:17 am
Last Updated:Dec 6, 2011 12:27 pm
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I sure hope we don't have Pound My Ass written all over our helmets and Jerseys today..
it's us vs. the patriots..
I hope at least Mathis and Freeney put on a show for us today !
Good Luck to all the teams today !
much love {=}
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man did you watch the Big Ten Championship game last night ?
what a game !!
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like EATing pussy....public service announcement
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Posted:Dec 3, 2011 9:07 am
Last Updated:Feb 12, 2013 3:12 pm
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Driving in the snow is like eating pussy……………
If you don’t slow down and pay attention you could slide into the asshole in front of you!
so Be careful this winter!
This has been a public service announcement.
much love {=}
  
I borrowed this from my hubby 
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you have reached.. kisses !
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Posted:Dec 2, 2011 6:00 pm
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2011 9:16 am
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much love {=}
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