Confessions Of An Italian
 
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My Little Black Book
Jul 23, 2008 8:05 pm
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I don't like the word Guestbook. I prefer to call it a shared little black book. Do you want to be my friend? If you read me or even just look at my photos let me know. Lets get connected...sign my little black book and let me know your into me or my blog.
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How Many Is Too Many
May 10, 2013 4:57 pm
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As I accumulate in years I notice my tastes changing in all areas of my life. No more salty but sweet. No more hot meals, I like them cold. Red wine is a thing of the past, today its all about white and dry. These are the minor things.

Now lets get serious for a second. Even my taste in men has changed. At one time it was all about slick men with a gold bracelet and pinky ring! (Ya I know, I'm Italian I cant hide it) Now you know what I like? Tattoos, motorcycles, a little facial hair, maybe rugged looking slightly.

Ok it could be the influence of The Sons Of Anarchy, I've thought of this but the tattoos have expanded into a desire myself. Over the years I have accumulated a few tiny tattoos in very discreet areas. But today my desire is going further. I admire complete sleeves on women, the pelvic tattoo is hot!

So what did I do? I went to get another one, but bigger and bolder. And now planning on another one.

What if my taste changes again? I am SOL!

When does it become to much? Or does it?

Ok Bella is confused.....but happy,

To tattoo or not to tattoo anymore....that is the question.

ps.....need a hot man with tattoos....pls apply!
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Lazy Sunday
Apr 28, 2013 5:38 pm
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Sunday night and I am so bored, I have no asperations of going out but even a phone call would suffice.

Ok this is an open invitation to men and women alike. If you know me and we have exchanged numbers, give me a ring. I need some socialization and not with my regular friends.

Luv......ME!
xoxoxoxo
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God Giveth And Taketh Away
Mar 31, 2013 12:48 pm
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Happy Easter to all of my friends,

Today is a very quite day for me so I thought I'd pop in and see what was happening online today. Ive realized this site is never quiet. Holiday or no holiday we are always here in motion.

Quiet or not its a fine day for me. I have been struggling emotionally the last 3 months and this morning I received something more important than anything money can buy. I received peace of mind. Pessamistic as I am I know that tomorrow morning all things can revert back to the norm but for today I will basque in the glory of my happiness and not dwell on the past mistakes Ive made, my fuck ups and my continuing struggle to be strong in every which way I know I am capeable of.

Not to seem neurotic but 2 weeks ago I went to buy gas and those damn gas bars have all that junk food! I usually never have a problem ignoring my favorite treats....the chocolate and the licorice and the sour gums to name a few. But I gave into temptation and purchased an Easter cream egg. I know its trivial but I love these things! I do not discriminate the mini eggs but the original ones with the goo inside....mmmmmm, thats my heaven!
So its 2 weeks later and Im still staring at this egg. I know if I eat it my hips will expand so I stare and stare at it. I move it around, play with it and talk to my friends about this fucking egg I have sitting on my counter calling my name for the past 2 weeks. Its a slow torture......torture to myself and my dogs as they love these eggs also. The odd time I have one I devour the chocolate and let them lick out the goo.....

If you want my egg just give me a call and Ill gladly deliver the little bastard to you!

Happy Easter everyone! xoxoxoxo

bella~
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Resurrection
Mar 8, 2013 5:45 pm
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Ive been gone for awhile. Sorry to all who have sent me email over the past months and have not gotten a response. MIA as I do often.

Ok I admit it. Ive been a bad girl. Had a number of relapses in many bruised areas of my life. I had a meltdown and turned to "old" bad habits. I would like to say with certainty that this cycle will one day end. But some days I am not so sure.

So this is my rehabilitation. I am working out again, eating healthy and avoiding the evils that often plague my life. Clean living I guess you would call it.

A friend sent me the photo you see posted. The caption was "Former Hooters Girl" Considering I fear on my tombstone will read "She used to be a Stripper" it scared the shit out of me!

Obviously it was time to start taking care of myself for fear I would end up like "her".

Lets call this my before pic. Would you fuck me looking like that?

bella~
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A Quick Hello And A Faster Goodbye
Dec 7, 2012 10:16 am
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I have been gone for a bit. Found things in my life became overwhelming to the point I needed to disconnect from everything and all. I'm feeling a little more sociable and starring to reconnect again.

In my reconnection I have created an account with Instagram. Its amazing how people you know that hate you request access to your photos. It just makes me wonder how bullshit most people are. I am honest and loyal and yet others....wow...it amazes me.

I feel another "fuck you" blog coming on. Just venting, trying to be more verbal in the positive and the negative. Unfortunately today it is in the negative. Ce' la vie....so goes life.

About to book a vacation, need to go to Vegas and party with no restraint. Anyone care to join me? I feel like being reckless again. Its time!
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Blaaah
Oct 8, 2012 8:40 am
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Kind of in a funk these days

MIA and I sort of like it that way. Sorry for not responding to mail and such. Not in the mood. I'll be back when I am feeling my old perky self.

bella~
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Cleansing Thy Self
Sep 24, 2012 8:38 am
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Ok, it's Monday, I am catholic and I have been a bad girl. I need to confess. In lieu of the wafers at church I will have wine tonight.

Don't judge me; just help me cleanse my soul. Hail Mary’s you say? Ok, just state my penance and I will do what needs to be done as long as I am free by 1:30 pm; I have to get my nails fixed.

Forgive me Passion for I have sinned. It has been 33 years since my last confession and I have been a very bad girl.
I honesty wake up in the morning and think to myself: “Now don’t break any commandments today!” But it is hard. The mind is strong but my will is weak.

Is it a sin to date a man 18 years younger than me? I think not! HE WHO HATH NOT SINNED CAST THE FIRST STONE! I am still standing…..whew! Yes, I know he was too young but he was so fresh! Fun! Without so many issues and baggage….Just a dork in his own way. He look at me with awe that at 33 I looked so good

The sex you ask? well….we heard the bells ring, chimes sound…The angels rejoice. Only problem was, my friends thought I had more than the regular amount of screws loose, and that music he listened to daily...Passion, shoot me now, I can’t take that mumbo jumbo, I am still a rocker chick through and through despite the incident in 1992 with….well you know. (His tongue was black from all the black tar heroin he did he couldn’t get it up) I read he is clean now…

So many sins, so little time. How far back do I go? Where do I begin?

We can all save a lot of time if you forgive me now because I just realized this is a huge undertaking that takes planning and thought.

Maybe a blog post of the future.

Enclosed is a photo that is not a sin...The wind was high that morning and my leaf flew away!

Let the sinning commence!

Bella~
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My First Fall Equinox Disaster
Sep 22, 2012 5:43 pm
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I wish I could say I had a lovely day but in all honesty that would be a bullshit comment.

I spent the good part of today in the emergency room.

A month ago I had a new shower door installed for my shower basin. Really spiffy looking doors, no frame, clear glass and it looked really sharp in my bathroom until this morning.(refer to the catalogue picture of my door)

As I got into the shower and closed the door, the glass doors collapsed around me! I got so scared I slipped on the glass and fell in the shower! I had glass wedged in every orfice and crevice of my body! But more than anything the blood from the cuts freaked me out! On average even a cut on my finger makes me faint, but from what I saw this morning it looked like a massacre occured! I passed out! I awoke, threw some clothes on and headed to emergency! I tried to dust the glass off of me but there was to many tiny little pieces enlogged in every part of my body!

I am now home, I have a headache, sore, itchy and all red and damaged. To put it nicely....I feel like shit! Obviously staying in tonight and bored to death. I need some company or some conversation. I can't even take advantage of the blogs tonight because I broke 3 nails as I fell and it is very difficult typing with uneven nails.

So come on, give me a call.....or come over and visit....and bring over some ice cream! I have left the key under the welcome mat....

bella~
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The Truth About Me
Sep 21, 2012 8:53 am
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Yesterday I had an abundance of time and took advantage by reading through some blogs.I have missed doing that so much. Sometimes you see yourself in others, sometimes it makes you remember.

The short of it all.

I have always been carefree, a butterfly of sorts, sometimes to a fault. I act before thinking, I speak before thinking. But I am loyal, trustworthy and sincere.

The truth about me…..there are many truths that many don’t know. I suppose there are many truths that I don’t know.

I used to be a dancer; I used to believe in love. I used to believe in miracles and I used to trust without reason. To be naïve again. It was fun, it was sad, it was fruitful but it also slowly damages a woman. It felt like a slow death that had me wishing my life would end.

I used my sexuality to my advantage, for company, for popularity, for sympathy and for evil intentions that I paid for in the end. During this time a blog was created, created to keep me sane. Created to understand what others saw but what I was too blind to see. I had no one to share my thoughts and my truth with. Frightened for anyone to really know my truth. Strangers were kind and loving, more than those in my life. I deleted this blog, but those who read me way back then know my truth a lot more than one blog post.

Self-medicating has been a common theme in my life. It gives me comfort, like a warm blanket. It makes me brave and it helps me forget. Temporary is more comforting than reality many times. Unfortunately these feelings don’t last forever.

Today I am together compared to my past. But my past tells a story. The true story of me, the depths of my heart and my soul. My reality and the fear of who I really am.

If you love me, love me for my real. Maybe a scared little girl that looks under the bed and around the corner? Maybe a strong woman with experience that has led her to where she is now?

I have matured, I have learned. This is some of the truth about me. But there is more, so much is missing. A jigsaw puzzle in the making, one piece at a time. And through this blog the pieces come together….one by one.

One cluster fuck at a time.

The truth about me.

Sometimes the truth hurts.

bella~
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Where Do I Park?
Sep 19, 2012 11:53 am
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I think I need to follow some new blogs. It's been awhile since I've been here and all of my friends and blogs I follow are inactive.

Any suggestions as to some great blogs? I'm not interested in the mainstream blogs or the top blogs on the front page. I am looking for more obscure and unknown blogs.

Help!!

bella~
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Vaffanculo Part Infinite
Sep 18, 2012 6:03 pm
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Some days you need one, some days you don't. Today I need one.

Vaffanculo to the asshole who took my picture for my driver’s license….that was not funny. I look like I haven’t eaten in days, green and sallow.

Vaffanculo to my internet provider, I may as well have dial up if I have to depend on you for my porn.

Vaffanculo to my ex- cupcake friend, you’re a bitch….you should be so lucky as to have your crotch look as pretty as my cupcakes!

Vaffanculo to the slaughterhouse that produced the recalled beef I bought for my dogs. Sunday they ate some, today diarrhea, poopy smears and smelly butts. May you have to walk around with shit on your ass all day.

Vaffanculo to the chick that sat on my face at the gym when she tripped over something or other….may you…ohh wait, it wasn’t that bad…..

Vaffanculo to the manufactures that made the panties I wore today…..damn uncomfortable….may the thread that was hanging between my legs all day find itself around your neck!

Vaffanculo to the roto router guy that unplugged my sewer system because I had no clue you couldn't flush tampons, making fun of me....may that blowjob you asked for instead of cash come back to haunt you after I tell your wife, a friend of mine.

Vaffanculo to the guy that came to see the car I’m selling and offered me almost nothing for a great car. May the next offer you get for your cock never come….uh…cum!

That is all.

Bella~
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A Hangover And No Panties
Sep 17, 2012 9:19 am
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Yesterday....

Went to the gym....and then this!

I feel like my head doesn't belong to me, my new car is not in the driveway, vaguely remember getting home, my panties are missing, can't get ahold of anyone on the phone.....

Does anyone know what this drink is? To put it delicately....I got completely shitfaced in a short period of time on this devil. But they taste so good!

Want to take advantage of me? Order me a few of these.

dangerous....

going to go throw up....
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